i finally understand...

i finally understand...
tat im the interupter....
y am i so stupid??
i make ppl stress out...
i make ppl hard 2 survive..
bt im there watching him evryday...
he dont wan me 2 b hurt....
he wanted to be with her again...
but im there blocking their way...
why am i so stupid??

i finally understand the feeling nt being lovE...
i love the wrong person...
why....
why have i choose the wrong person to love??
im really so stupid...
this world is not worth for me to continue live....
because..
i dony know whether i can survive..
without u.....

as in a song...
how do i live without you...
i want to know...
how do i breath without you...
if you ever know...
how do i ever...
ever SURVIVE....
how do i...
how do i...
how do i live.......

hapPY..always...

im haPpy...
yea...im hapPY...
looks like im ok in evrything..
im physical...
mentally....
yea...
re...ally...









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to be honest..
im hurt deEp inside my heart...
so hurt..
bt i cant let ppl c wat i felt...
worry me....
so i have 2 pretend...
pretend that im hapPy....
so that i could look ok n be gud...
not 2 b sad...
nt sad...
happY...
i wish 2 xpress my feelings...
bt i cANT...
i will make ppL felt moRe stress...
more pressure...
so...
i do what i have 2 do...






isnt it guD?
do any ppl support me 2 do this??

L.O.V.E

L, is for the wAy you lOok at me....

O, is for thE only one I see...

V, is vEry very exTRaordinarY...

E, is even moRe than Anyone that you adore

LOVE..is all that I can tAke to you..

LOve...is moRe than juZ a game for twO...

Two...in loVE can make it

take my HEart bUT pleAse dont breaK it

LOVE...

was meanT for mE and yOOU...

y is this happening?

y is this hapening?
couldnt it be more easy??
y u have 2 treat ppl like that?
ppl are suffering and u didnt even care....

well dont talk about u....
him...

i wan ted 2 gv him some words..
care about him....
talk to him...
but i couldnt..
its hard....
all his head...
all his thoughts now...
is all bout u....
u.......
what will happen if i talk to hIm?
what will he thinks?
i shouldnt be that busy body...
i shouldnt care other peoples things...
but i couldnt watch him like that....
it hurts...
i coulnt express....

i will only watch u by the side...
watch u sad..
watch u.....
y should i sigh....
is it worth?
am i waiting for ur responds?
am i??

......
final exam is coming....
and now i am thinking all of this?
i felt so useless.....
i failed in everything......
everything......
LOVE....
DANCE...
STUDY....
FAMILY...
FRIENDS....


EVERYTHING.......

i surrender....

i surrender...
i really dont know what had happen...
is it too fast?
did it really happen too fast??
i cant take it anymore..
i surrender...
i surrender...

i dont want to have anymore problem happen
and effect our friendship...
i wanted the life before...
i want our fiendshiP to be like las time...
i dont want anythings to happen again..
i wanted to be like last timeee.....

oh my dearest god...
is this a test??
is this a test that wanted me to be strong??
if so i really wanted to be stopped..
i want a simple life...
im willing to do anythings else but not this..
im hoping to have a good life in college...
not a complicated life....
not a life that full of pressure...
not because of study...its because of LOVE...

i dont want to be control by others...
i wanted to find my way out of this miserable disaster....

i loVe my life..

Finally....
i know who i really love...
i feel so hapPy with him....
we are happy...
really happy...
buT.....
somethings stopping us...

have we sin??
for being together??
have we sin?
to love each other?
we dont know what people think...
we dont know what they think of us...
we dont want to spoil our friendshiP...
we've done so many to prevent us from having spoiles relation..
because of LOVE...


FRIENDS...
friendship is forever....
do not let LOVE relation break our friendship...
and do not let others spoiled our friendshiP too...
we need each other too....

LEt us think widely....
LOVE is juz a small things but its powerful too...
although its powerful...
but our friendship is bond toghther...

FrienShip foreVer........

life's really sucKs!

now i know who i really love.....
but there is so many problems...

why are thre such ppl in this worldd??
coul they b any selfish?
dont they think other ppls's feeling??
dont think think wat is good for others??
we have feelings too....
we are nt 'thigs'

soo....
pls do think about wat is happening around u...
DUN B SO SELFISH.....





plzzz do change....