suffering...

why the ppl i love...
all also didnt have feelings on me...
and the ppl i didnt like...
will have feelings on me??
is it very hard to love someone??
it is very painful to know that he didnt have feelings on me...

should i sit here and cry?
should i continue...?
should i give up..
ppl say that i look confidence...
but actually...
im not....
my heart is weaker than anybody else....
i have a weak heart...
and i dont like to be hurt....
i dont like....
so what should i do?

this is the first time i felt so hurt...
so i will stop loving people and start changing myself...
change myself to a better person...
so that i wont be look down....

mu beloved god...
plzz guide me in everything i do...
to make me a better person....
T.T

ruin..

now only i know that im that bad..
i thought that im the luckiest one...
but im wrong....
im too confident...
i should not me like that...
i should have change my attitude...

im so stupid stupd stupid...
really so stupid....
i really ruin my life...
i dont know that im the one or nt...
why i feel so confident that im the one??

oh..god...plzz...
help me change my attitude..
i wan my attractive side...
like last time...
now i have ruin it....

bt i think its too late...
haiz..
i think i should give up...
give up on that personn...
bt...
can i???

dance..

i feel so stress out...
i dont know what to do??
will i ever make it?
will i satisfy them?

argh...dance...

2 me... dance is very unique...
dance is all about creativity..
dance is all about how we espress our feeling...
the way we move...
the way we dance...

dance dance dance.......

back 2 the title..

sport dance....

the exam is coming and i only have 4days to coreograph...
im goin 2 b mad...
all of our member will be mad and also me....
we have 2 learn like hell...
like helllllll!

oh my godd.....
help me.......

??

what have i done?
did i done anything wrong?
y i feel like im such a loser??!
or im nt good enough?
cant i do anything i wan 2 do?
why muz i've been critisice?

i hate being criticize...
i hate i hate i hate...
i know that u all are just joking around..
bt do u know?
im a human...
i DO have limit...
so plzzz...
pls think of others before sayin...

i always ask myself?
do i have freedom?
am i been hated by ppl?
am i too overdoing??

life are really very shocking....
we dunno wat will happen next...

i hope i wil bcome a better person....
i hope they will accept what i am...
and who i am......