when i grow up....my dreams....

now i've got a confession...
when i was young i wanna attention..
and i promise myself i'll do anything...
anything at all for them to notice me...
but i aint complaining..
we all wanna be famous..
so go ahead and say what you wanna say...
you dont know what the feel being nameless...
you want everybody to know what your name is...
coz see when i was younger i will say...

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when i grow up ...
i wanna be famous...
i wanna be a star ...
i wanna be in movie..

when i grow up..
i wanna see the world...
drive nice cars..
i wanna have groupies...

when i grow up...
be on tv...
people know me...
be on magazine...

when i grow up..
fresh and clean..
number 1 click when i step out on the scene...

becareful what you wish because you just might get it..
just might get it...

They use to tell me i was silly..
until i popped on the tv..
i always wanted to be a superstar..
and knew singing song would get me this far...

i see they staring on me...
oh im a trensetter..
yes this is true coz i can do ...
and no one could do it better...
you can talk about me...
coz im a hot topic...
i see you watching me watching me...
and i know u want it.....

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this song too describe my dreams....
when i grow up...
i wanna be famous...
i will try my best.....
im now catching my dreams...
and not to let them gt awayyy....
by seeing this lyrics...
i knew i could....
i couldd....
win the people who always look down on me....
look down on me for no reason...
win those people who always criticise me...
win those people who think im a loser....
.......
WHEN I GROW UP.......................
its almoz near....

to all my beloved friends..

remember the 1st time we meet?
remember the 1st time we talk?
remember the 1st time we introduce ourselves?
remember the 1st time we hang out together??
remember the 1st time we took our meals togehther?
all of this...
do you all still remember??
i bet a part of it you will still remember...but just only afew.....

try to have a flash back memory and remember all...

what we like the 1st time......
is it same like now??
are the situation are happy?
sad?
or ??

we use to hang out after we known each other well...
gone out at night...
hang around...
play around...
fool around...
rock Around...
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ooowhhh....
how i miss that time....
we are so close that time....

but soon..
"BOOM!!''
all those nice memory is gone....
gone by the wind....
gone by the sea....
gone gone gone.......
all gone....
why??
why it has to be like that??
and its because of A THINGS...(Well,mayb its consider a feeling)
and all will know....
that it kills...
it destroy....
it damage all friendshiP....
LOVE..........

once this feelings come...
some will say its a good thing...
but no for some people....
to those who are experience....
known the meaning of it...
but to those who just started...
beware....
the power of love is strong..
stronger than you could imagine....
(sounds bit over)

friends....
plzzz...
do not because of love...
break out the tie of a friendshIp
a person can live without loVe....
but a person CANT live without a love of a FRIENDSHIP...

im so free.....

aFter the accident i felt so free..
at home..
so bored....
oh no....
after eat i online...
after online felt sleepy then go sleep...
after sleep wake up already the next morning...
i cant even do sports...
im goin mad...
oh no...


before the accident i will practise my dance at least EVERYDAY..
or else i felt that im not sweaty enough...
but now...i cant even walk properly..
my waist are injured...
my hand...
all bruises...
I CANT DANCEE.....T.T...


so as i say...
i online...
i've done this to fill my free time....

i've sent it to them....

im so free...

yishhh...

this life make me feel so sux...if i continue this life,,,

i'll become obese....

i cant take it anymore..

sitin at home doin ntg...

this isnt my life....

my wish are granted..

my wish are granted...
so...
should i feel happy??

wan 2 know what wish for??
xp..
u will gt shocked...

i wish to experienced an accident...
and now...
huala.....
i have gt it 2day....

its painful than i tot...
n im lucky my face is not dstroy...
i protected my face with my hands and injured my hands....

so...
im happy now...
and im also suffering from the pain....

my frenz mayb will say i have learned my lesson...
and i should have experienced it...
bcoz im a dangerous driver...
now..
i didnt know i will continue drive or stop....























so....
yeah me.....

i will always loVE you....

if i.....
shoulnt stay....
i will only be you way....
so i'll go....
but i know...
i'll think of you every steps of...
the way...

and I....
will always lovE YOU....
will always..lovE YOU...
YOUU...
my darling you...you...

bitter sweet..memory...
thats is all..
im taking with me..
so goodbye..pls dont cry...
we both know im not what you..you need...

anD i...will always love you...
will always lovE you...

i hOpe life treats you kind..
and i hope you hot what you dream of..
and i wish you joy and happiness..
but above all this i wish you LOVE...

And i will always lovE YOU...
i will always love youuu.....

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THis is what are my feelings now...
even do i wish that he could know what i think...
but its impossible....
but nevermind...
i wish him from the bottom of my heart...
even though i tell him i didnt love him....
its fake....
i still love you...
from the bottom of my heart..
but we are not meant to be with each other....
so im here wishing u...
have a better life...
than suffering with me....
i will always love you...
as i say....
i'll be here...
if and only you needed me....
but ....
that day wont come....

if and only.....
miracle comes.....
and find me....
and cure my heart...

i wont be sticking with you that often anymore...
u loVEd her...
u should be with her...
and not me....
i will find my better
life...if could....

or...

its more easier to end it....

its not because of love...
but its my LIFE....

i finally understand...

i finally understand...
tat im the interupter....
y am i so stupid??
i make ppl stress out...
i make ppl hard 2 survive..
bt im there watching him evryday...
he dont wan me 2 b hurt....
he wanted to be with her again...
but im there blocking their way...
why am i so stupid??

i finally understand the feeling nt being lovE...
i love the wrong person...
why....
why have i choose the wrong person to love??
im really so stupid...
this world is not worth for me to continue live....
because..
i dony know whether i can survive..
without u.....

as in a song...
how do i live without you...
i want to know...
how do i breath without you...
if you ever know...
how do i ever...
ever SURVIVE....
how do i...
how do i...
how do i live.......

hapPY..always...

im haPpy...
yea...im hapPY...
looks like im ok in evrything..
im physical...
mentally....
yea...
re...ally...









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to be honest..
im hurt deEp inside my heart...
so hurt..
bt i cant let ppl c wat i felt...
worry me....
so i have 2 pretend...
pretend that im hapPy....
so that i could look ok n be gud...
not 2 b sad...
nt sad...
happY...
i wish 2 xpress my feelings...
bt i cANT...
i will make ppL felt moRe stress...
more pressure...
so...
i do what i have 2 do...






isnt it guD?
do any ppl support me 2 do this??