im so free.....

aFter the accident i felt so free..
at home..
so bored....
oh no....
after eat i online...
after online felt sleepy then go sleep...
after sleep wake up already the next morning...
i cant even do sports...
im goin mad...
oh no...


before the accident i will practise my dance at least EVERYDAY..
or else i felt that im not sweaty enough...
but now...i cant even walk properly..
my waist are injured...
my hand...
all bruises...
I CANT DANCEE.....T.T...


so as i say...
i online...
i've done this to fill my free time....

i've sent it to them....

im so free...

yishhh...

this life make me feel so sux...if i continue this life,,,

i'll become obese....

i cant take it anymore..

sitin at home doin ntg...

this isnt my life....

my wish are granted..

my wish are granted...
so...
should i feel happy??

wan 2 know what wish for??
xp..
u will gt shocked...

i wish to experienced an accident...
and now...
huala.....
i have gt it 2day....

its painful than i tot...
n im lucky my face is not dstroy...
i protected my face with my hands and injured my hands....

so...
im happy now...
and im also suffering from the pain....

my frenz mayb will say i have learned my lesson...
and i should have experienced it...
bcoz im a dangerous driver...
now..
i didnt know i will continue drive or stop....























so....
yeah me.....

i will always loVE you....

if i.....
shoulnt stay....
i will only be you way....
so i'll go....
but i know...
i'll think of you every steps of...
the way...

and I....
will always lovE YOU....
will always..lovE YOU...
YOUU...
my darling you...you...

bitter sweet..memory...
thats is all..
im taking with me..
so goodbye..pls dont cry...
we both know im not what you..you need...

anD i...will always love you...
will always lovE you...

i hOpe life treats you kind..
and i hope you hot what you dream of..
and i wish you joy and happiness..
but above all this i wish you LOVE...

And i will always lovE YOU...
i will always love youuu.....

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THis is what are my feelings now...
even do i wish that he could know what i think...
but its impossible....
but nevermind...
i wish him from the bottom of my heart...
even though i tell him i didnt love him....
its fake....
i still love you...
from the bottom of my heart..
but we are not meant to be with each other....
so im here wishing u...
have a better life...
than suffering with me....
i will always love you...
as i say....
i'll be here...
if and only you needed me....
but ....
that day wont come....

if and only.....
miracle comes.....
and find me....
and cure my heart...

i wont be sticking with you that often anymore...
u loVEd her...
u should be with her...
and not me....
i will find my better
life...if could....

or...

its more easier to end it....

its not because of love...
but its my LIFE....

i finally understand...

i finally understand...
tat im the interupter....
y am i so stupid??
i make ppl stress out...
i make ppl hard 2 survive..
bt im there watching him evryday...
he dont wan me 2 b hurt....
he wanted to be with her again...
but im there blocking their way...
why am i so stupid??

i finally understand the feeling nt being lovE...
i love the wrong person...
why....
why have i choose the wrong person to love??
im really so stupid...
this world is not worth for me to continue live....
because..
i dony know whether i can survive..
without u.....

as in a song...
how do i live without you...
i want to know...
how do i breath without you...
if you ever know...
how do i ever...
ever SURVIVE....
how do i...
how do i...
how do i live.......

hapPY..always...

im haPpy...
yea...im hapPY...
looks like im ok in evrything..
im physical...
mentally....
yea...
re...ally...









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to be honest..
im hurt deEp inside my heart...
so hurt..
bt i cant let ppl c wat i felt...
worry me....
so i have 2 pretend...
pretend that im hapPy....
so that i could look ok n be gud...
not 2 b sad...
nt sad...
happY...
i wish 2 xpress my feelings...
bt i cANT...
i will make ppL felt moRe stress...
more pressure...
so...
i do what i have 2 do...






isnt it guD?
do any ppl support me 2 do this??

L.O.V.E

L, is for the wAy you lOok at me....

O, is for thE only one I see...

V, is vEry very exTRaordinarY...

E, is even moRe than Anyone that you adore

LOVE..is all that I can tAke to you..

LOve...is moRe than juZ a game for twO...

Two...in loVE can make it

take my HEart bUT pleAse dont breaK it

LOVE...

was meanT for mE and yOOU...

y is this happening?

y is this hapening?
couldnt it be more easy??
y u have 2 treat ppl like that?
ppl are suffering and u didnt even care....

well dont talk about u....
him...

i wan ted 2 gv him some words..
care about him....
talk to him...
but i couldnt..
its hard....
all his head...
all his thoughts now...
is all bout u....
u.......
what will happen if i talk to hIm?
what will he thinks?
i shouldnt be that busy body...
i shouldnt care other peoples things...
but i couldnt watch him like that....
it hurts...
i coulnt express....

i will only watch u by the side...
watch u sad..
watch u.....
y should i sigh....
is it worth?
am i waiting for ur responds?
am i??

......
final exam is coming....
and now i am thinking all of this?
i felt so useless.....
i failed in everything......
everything......
LOVE....
DANCE...
STUDY....
FAMILY...
FRIENDS....


EVERYTHING.......